REFLECTIONS

A Note on the Journey

My work over the past seasons has been deeply shaped by the writings of Bernadette Roberts. Her articulation of the interior journey gave language to experiences I trusted but could not yet name. For that, I remain profoundly grateful.

What is unfolding now is a pivot from that year with her. The blog will still be reflective in nature, but focused on different material. Something lived more explicitly in the body, in relationships, and in the ordinary moments where patterns reveal themselves and something new becomes possible.

I find myself at a threshold. There is energy here, curiosity, creativity, a sense of alignment, and also a necessary unknowing. Rather than certainty, what feels most faithful is attention.

In this season, my writing and work are pivoting toward presence as a lived reality, often through the lens of the Enneagram, not as a system to master, but as a doorway into embodiment, awareness, and honest engagement with life as it is.

This space will continue to reflect on the inner journey, but with a growing emphasis on how that journey shows up in real time: in the body, in conflict, in growth, and in the courage it takes to stay present when old strategies no longer serve.

If you are sensing a threshold of your own, you are welcome here.

Am I in Contact?
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Am I in Contact?

The question Am I in contact? is not directed outward towards anything, not to a person or the circumstances of the day, but instead it is directed at something more interior and more primary than that. It is directed at contact with myself. The question invites me to return to the life I’m living from the inside. This feels important because contact with myself is the only place from which anything else becomes truly available.

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The Invitation to Discover
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The Invitation to Discover

What these reflections offer instead is an invitation to explore gently, staying close to your actual experience as it unfolds. You might think of it as an experiment, or as the exploration of a new place. In either case, the point is not to get it right, but to discover what is true.

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Threshold Moments: Before, During, and After
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Threshold Moments: Before, During, and After

There are moments life when something quietly shifts. Nothing dramatic announces itself and no clear map is received, yet, something in us knows we are standing at a threshold.

I have sensed such an inner threshold emerging for some time now, not as rupture, but as invitation. An invitation to step forward without certainty of what lies on the other side. To walk through with curiosity, humility, and a willingness to be surprised. I do not yet know what the “after” will hold, but I recognize the feeling of being on the Way, and that feels faithful enough for now.

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Advent and the winter solstice invite us into a quieter way of knowing. A slowing. A listening beneath words and images.

In this week’s reflection, I return to Bernadette Roberts and her insight that God does not arrive as an image or idea, but as that which accesses the core of our being. What meets us there is often subtle, wordless, and deeply embodied—known before it is understood.

This is not a spirituality we generate. It is something that approaches us. And our work may be as simple, and as difficult, as paying attention.

I explore how this kind of knowing intersects with contemplative practice, the Enneagram, and the courage to remain present in the dark season, trusting that something real is already at work.

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When the Presence that lives within us feels more like a black hole than a light, how do we trust it? This week I explore both Roberts and Metz on the terrifying grace of the unknown, and the quiet beckoning that can reshape a life from the inside out.

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God in Nature - Paragraph 18

This week’s reflection explores the facets of the holy, the art of naming our experience with clarity, and the gentle invitations that arise when we’re finally moving slowly enough to feel them.

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The Unfinished Self: Embrace Your Lifelong Project
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The Unfinished Self: Embrace Your Lifelong Project

Have you ever noticed how our world encourages constant acquiring, equating “more” with “better”? This belief shapes how we approach personal transformation as we often think it’s about gaining something new.

In reality, transformation is about letting go and discovering what is already within us. Rather than accumulating, transformation is the process of moving from doing to being, of uncovering our true nature.

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